Can’t Hurt Me

 Feels surreal to have achieved something I have been working towards for most of my life. Me and Nigel were taking in the locker room well everyone else was setting up the ceremony. We both realized that nothing changes going forward. My training has been sustainable so far and with my work now becoming more busy it will test my routines slightly. I don’t see this being a problem in the future because I’ll be able to adapt my routines when needed. And I believe that’s the important part going forward. My life will change and my training will need to be sustainable. In fact I will put my life’s stability as a symbol of my commitment to my kung fu. 

My normal resting bbm is 60, for the last week is has consistently been 65-70, slightly elevated but within optimal range still. I believe I have everything I can to prepare myself for tomorrow. Now the main focus right now is to control my nerves and not invalidate everything I have done to make it to this point. There has been lots of self reflection and analysis over this last year up till now. My friends and family have been with me this entire time. There is not anything else I can think to say in this blog right now. Other than I just need to go out there tomorrow, show everything, and do the best I can.   Numbers P/U 46500 S/U 44000 Forms 756/784 Sparring 245 AOK 779 Mileage 1184.73km Blogs 37 Mastery: Memorized

I  believe I have improved a lot over that last year. And not just in my kung fu, but across everything in my life. I grew my buisness significantly in 2025, and I was able to encourage more of my friends and family to succeed too by going after their dream careers. Where there things that I wanted to accomplish that I didn’t? Yes. But the lessons I learned in that time are some of the most valuable lessons I can bring into the coming future.  For instance, phrasing in my forms has been tricky, and that’s simply because I didn’t put enough time into training mindfully about phrasing. I definitely thought about it during my forms the best I could at times, but I put more emphasis on finishing my techniques, stances, and the transitions between them in my forms. Which I know I can now bring phrasing into my forms much more easily based off the times I spent dedicated to it.  I was at a company conference today and one of the speakers said something that just hit me differen...

 Less than two weeks away now. I wake up every morning asking myself if I have done everything I can think of. Sure there are second thoughts on somethings I’ve done but I can’t change that now. I did not do them the wrong or right way. It’s just how I did them at that moment of my life. Have I matured more since than. I’d like to think I did, I keep going over everything and trying to figure out new ideas and perspectives.  I also keep reflecting on this past year. To be honest I wasn’t really thinking about new years. To me that morning it just felt like a new day like everything else was the year before. My routine did not change and neither did my goals. I didn’t have New Year’s resolution planned. Because I believe for us as martial artists, we need to be having constant resolutions going on; because how else are we going to get better every day? I’m referring to mastery here but in a different sense. 

 It’s amazing how fast future events can arrive. It feels like yesterday Sifu Ryback said “44 Days” till the grading. “I got some time” I said to myself. Now realizing. I actually don’t have really anytime left. The grading board has already made their decision. I just need to either prove they are making the right decision, which ever that may be.  Which brings me to the control we always talk about. I have no control over what happens that day. I just need to do my demo and not hide anything. I want my flaws and strengths to show that day. I won’t be perfect that day, I’m only going to be as good as I prepared, and if I was perfect would mean I have achieved mastery. And if I did that than something isn’t right. Like I said earlier. The board has already made their decision. I just need to prove they are making the right decision. Numbers P/U 45097 S/U 42380 Forms 704/749 Sparring 218 AOK 724 Mileage 1136.82km

 That’s how much time is left until the grading. Am I nervous? A yes but who wouldn’t be nervous when something you have been working towards for nearly your entire life is less than a month away. And most people fail to realize that how they truly feel in some of the most important situations in our lives. We can all say “I got this” or “no one can stop me” but deep down there isn voice saying “umm actually you need to chill out and take a look around”. That was me last year going into the grading. I had my ego leading the way and it cost me. I didn’t check myself, and I never properly prepared because I thought nothing can stop me. Well can I tell you something. If you think nothing can stop you. Something is definitely going to come out of left field and stop you right than and there.  So sometimes we need to just stop. Take a moment and reflect with ourselves. “Did I do everything I could have”. No, than get back to it and finish. Yes, move forward to the next one.