13 Days 19 Hours and 26 Minutes

 Less than two weeks away now. I wake up every morning asking myself if I have done everything I can think of. Sure there are second thoughts on somethings I’ve done but I can’t change that now. I did not do them the wrong or right way. It’s just how I did them at that moment of my life. Have I matured more since than. I’d like to think I did, I keep going over everything and trying to figure out new ideas and perspectives. 

I also keep reflecting on this past year. To be honest I wasn’t really thinking about new years. To me that morning it just felt like a new day like everything else was the year before. My routine did not change and neither did my goals. I didn’t have New Year’s resolution planned. Because I believe for us as martial artists, we need to be having constant resolutions going on; because how else are we going to get better every day? I’m referring to mastery here but in a different sense. 

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