It’s amazing how fast future events can arrive. It feels like yesterday Sifu Ryback said “44 Days” till the grading. “I got some time” I said to myself. Now realizing. I actually don’t have really anytime left. The grading board has already made their decision. I just need to either prove they are making the right decision, which ever that may be. Which brings me to the control we always talk about. I have no control over what happens that day. I just need to do my demo and not hide anything. I want my flaws and strengths to show that day. I won’t be perfect that day, I’m only going to be as good as I prepared, and if I was perfect would mean I have achieved mastery. And if I did that than something isn’t right. Like I said earlier. The board has already made their decision. I just need to prove they are making the right decision. Numbers P/U 45097 S/U 42380 Forms 704/749 Sparring 218 AOK 724 Mileage 1136.82km
My normal resting bbm is 60, for the last week is has consistently been 65-70, slightly elevated but within optimal range still. I believe I have everything I can to prepare myself for tomorrow. Now the main focus right now is to control my nerves and not invalidate everything I have done to make it to this point. There has been lots of self reflection and analysis over this last year up till now. My friends and family have been with me this entire time. There is not anything else I can think to say in this blog right now. Other than I just need to go out there tomorrow, show everything, and do the best I can. Numbers P/U 46500 S/U 44000 Forms 756/784 Sparring 245 AOK 779 Mileage 1184.73km Blogs 37 Mastery: Memorized
This mornings class really brought my progress into perspective. Toudai I made a comment about our previous class when we worked on our spinning back kick. Even though we had not practiced it for some time, the class was really good and we had really good kicks. Their comment was about how anything we do in kung fu will ultimately support everything in it, no mater how remote they are from each other. I hadn’t trained my spinning back kick outside of kung fu in quite some time but this class was really good, and when I reflected back on their comment from this mornings class about everything being supported. It hit me like a truck with just how much someone can profess in something even if they don’t directly train on it but simply train it in-directly.
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