Openness

 One of my largest struggles this year has been my blogging. It’s not that I forget to blog, it’s just that I don’t do it. I want to blog, but my mind says “don’t do it”. Compared to knowing me in person I’m a pretty open person to talk to. However, once I need to put a blog out, I shelter away. 

This is mainly because I’m nervous about my blogs. Are they good, are they going to benefit other members of the team, could this offend my team members. I’ve even had the extreme thought of “what if they judge me for what I put in my blog”. I didn’t have this (I don’t want to call it fear), anxiety about my blogging last year. Maybe it’s because it’s my second attempt at the grading and now I’m more anxious about putting out good blogs. But now that is hurting my progress because I have missed my blogging minimums. 

I believe I just need to say “send it” and just put out the blogs that I want to put out. And not try to make blogs that will direct me away from what I actually want to post, fearing judgement from my peers. 

Numbers 

P/U: 16021

S/U: 14953

Forms: 159/167

Sparring: 45

AoK: 349

Mileage: 494.37km

Comments

  1. KhonaJuly 6, 2025 at 10:11 PM

    As I just commented on Toudai Bauers post; humility is honest, ego lies. Make sure ego is not what drives your blogs, or is what causes you anxiety for posting. Be honest and it should be easy to publish; if it’s not then look closer at what is driving your writing. The desire to learn and express your discoveries, to record your journey. There is nothing offensive about that.

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